"When" I sign my name...in 2009, I pulled out paints, pencils and other art supplies I honestly had not touched since 1984. I also pulled out paintings from my parents basement from the same year. Most of the work had no signature - but it was all mine - and immediately I recalled my rationale for not signing, back in the day. The bravado put forth, was that it was "vain," sort of like the thinking of bringing children into the world to continue one's legacy.
These days, I sign a few pieces, though the logic for not signing has changed. Pealing back the layers of media-speak, the reason many things aren't signed, or publicly displayed, or placed in plain for all the world to see is me. I could name an ugly emotion or lack of self-esteem, but isn't all of that, as well as a healthy self-esteem, bundled up in my body, soul and spirit? Aren't all the wholesome as well as unhealthy thinking part and parcel of what makes Eddie unique?
I have two paintings that will get a signature today, even if it's 11:58 or :59 pm! One painting titled, "Bird in Flight," seems to have a single focal point on a dark background. To see the painting up close is to see, not only the bird, but a single tree, leaning - as my wife pointed out, yesterday. The story behind this painting is this: one evening, while in prayer (the type with eyes closed, head bowed and a dark room) the image flashed across my conscious mind. I could see the outline of trees in a dark background, being blown by a strong breeze. Then, suddenly a bird taking off from what seemed to be a body of water. The image stayed with me, giving me the impression I should draw and paint it. I haven't touched the painting in over a year for various reasons, but looking at it, laying in the stack of paintings the other day, I thought it was time to put the finishing touches on it. I put it on the easel and to my surprise, it was finished! Except for one thing: a signature.
Bird in Flight |
Hey Eddie,
ReplyDeleteLove the post and the emotions and thoughts of what makes us who we are. Can't really see the pic though as it is showing up very, very dark. Can you lighten the photo up some?
Blessings,
Deborah
Hey Deb, Thanks for your comments. The painting is dark and I'm adding a lighter shot. This is definitely a piece that is difficult to see, especially without a great camera. I'll get my son (and his better camera) to add another shot later. Thanks again!
ReplyDeleteHey Eddie. Your closing sentence is nicely put and, in fact, timely for me to hear. Recently, I too have been repeatedly washed over by remembrances of my past "glory days", BC. They only glorified my flesh. It seems now that God is showing me that perhaps something new could sprout from something old; this time putting glory where it belongs...on Him. It's exciting to think of the prospects, but also nerve-wracking trying to find the balance between waiting on Him and acting. I appreciate you, brother.
ReplyDeleteHey Buzz, I hear you, guy. While there is no reconciling 'flesh' to 'spirit,' our past does hold answers for our life now and in the future. In a sense it is the way God works; he takes aspects of our lives and turns them inside out; upside down and when He's ready, he makes a "new reveal" ~ us, bright, shiny and new. Yeah patience aint the easiest to exercise. Honestly, I think the battle between our "I-want-it-now" desires and waiting on God holds a special place in our development as well, but that's for another time. I'm praying with you brother; with God's grace we'll get there in "one piece!"
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